It surprises me how much something can change in such little time. This girl has had her fair share of change, she has her life turned upside down, her friends and what family she has taken away from her and walk out on her. She doesn’t know how much more she can take but this is a way she can get it out.
My story starts a while back, it starts as a normal girl finds that her family isn’t as happy as it seems. She finds that her not much of a father isn’t really being there, he is too wrapped up in his other family to give a small stuff about this one. She finds her mum is the one holding her family together and without her they would be nothing. She is a single mum of twin girls, now that isn’t real easy thing to be.
Her dad met his new partner at his job as a correctional officer. They started as a normal couple with her having another kid from a previous relationship and this dad already having twins. It felt good to him. To have someone the girls could turn to as someone different that wasn’t going to judge them. But that wasn’t the case, yet it ended up being the complete opposite
It turned out to be someone that would make the girls lives with their father a misery, something that won’t be able to change for years to come, when their father finally realises that he had two beautiful daughters. But I guess that won’t happen seeing as they have realised that their father has other children, that somewhat must have meant more to him, more than them...
People look at the two girls as normal people and yes they are normal but those girls hide something deep, they don’t advertise it to many people because they just want to have a normal family but sometimes that is a bit much to ask for some people isn’t it? Yes they have got a normal family or what they know to be normal they have their mum, who was there for everything, a sibling that they can talk too and they have someone that they can turn to when things get rough their grandma and the one father figure that they have in their life at the moment would be their grandad he is the one person who wouldn’t and doesn’t judge them.
Okay, there are still many things I haven’t covered. The things that the two girls hold back are big.
All they wanted was him; they just wanted their dad to love them, to show the love that he shows his other family. I know that sounds a bit weird but you have to understand that the truth is they barely know him. And he barely knows them. There has not been one day where he has sat down with them and just talked about everything and anything that came to mind, the girls would have loved that, everyone that actually can do that with their dad might kill themselves to have to sit down and just talk to them but they actually don’t know what it is like to not have a dad, it’s not like not having a bike or not having a TV in their room. The pain that it comes with it, to know that your dad, the person who is meant to look after his girls, to protect them from everything including boys isn’t there, isn’t there for you to have a fight with or to say “night dad” yeah that hurts.
Most people really don’t understand that the pain of this isn’t physical its mental, it’s something that really can’t be handled if too much is dished out, people need to understand that because the two girls have a smile on their faces everyday or close to it doesn’t always mean things come to the surface it just means that they are good at hiding something, putting it away for a while because when they smile it means they have forgotten for that one day or those couple of hours they just forget and they remember that they have each other and that’s all they need if he is like this.
But still when they get home and when no one is around its different because when they get home it all comes flooding back. The memories are all there in the photos that they keep as one thing to look back on, to actually feel him there isn’t working he doesn’t put the effort into seeing these girls who would end up giving the world for him, you’re probably saying try again or give up right?
The two girls don’t want to do either, they want to keep trying but maybe it’s time to finally
Give up, to show him how it feels to lose someone, because the day he married her, they lost him. But still deep down they still want him in their life and of course they do because even though he doesn’t act like it, he is and always will be their dad. And yes there will always be a place in their hearts for him but knowing that they have to let go for a while to get him used to not having them but it won’t feel much change to them because it’s just going to be a normal period of time for them another time without their dad, mm that’s normal.
A while will eventually pass and if he still is the same person that he is now, he wouldn’t have changed so he wouldn’t realise that these girls need him as much as that other family he has, if he has changed and actually seen what it’s like to not have them, to not have someone there, which he has to realise sooner or later but by chance that he doesn’t these two girls might eventually get over it.
Get over the crap that comes with him, that ties them together that makes him, him. When that happens I’m pretty sure that he will realise what just happened and he will want them in his life for a change or his life as he knows it might come crashing down and he might get that these girls they were the only ones to come close to actually caring about him. And when he comes knocking on that door wanting forgiveness those girls will need to think are they ready to let someone into their lives who has been without them for so long, someone that practically forgot about them? Will they be ready for something like that?
Would you give up? Would you let him get to you? Because these two girls did, they didn’t give up well not yet anyway. They are strong they are together for this, for every time they need someone. They will have each other.
The two girls, yeah the twins, they want to let him know so much but don’t know how too, if he doesn’t want them in his life they are over. Changing to fit in to his or her stencil, they aren’t going to do it anymore they can’t and won’t. They are standing up for themselves for what they believe in what they think is right, they don’t want him anymore. For this one time they can admit they don’t want to keep chasing after something that they know won’t happen, they know it now it’s OVER! The fight they thought they would never win. Yeah they are pulling out now. They know it’s officially over.
